Can’t seem to find.

Is there really any hope?

Finding positive things during times like this is very hard. Everywhere you look, you can see the unfortunate state of being of the people not only in the Philippines, but the whole world. Everyone is trying to find ways to get food and enough supplies. Everyone is just trying to survive. One can say that their supplies are enough, but it will eventually run out if the situation doesn’t improve. Personally, I can’t really say that I could find anything positive during these times for I think that it will be selfish. I definitely am thankful that we still have food to eat every day, but I am not proud of it. I feel guilty that I can’t do anything to help other people. The only thing I can do to help is by staying at home. That’s it.

One headline that I read today is that according to the government, “it can be told that we are starting to flatten the curve”. I cannot even look at it as a positive thing for a huge amount of people have not yet been tested, and there is still no definite time when this will end. Instead of being something positive to look at, it just reminded me of the government’s poor handling of this pandemic.

I am sorry.

The things I said above were more of a rant rather than telling what gives me hope. It has been giving off a bad tone. It’s just that this has been a very depressing time for me. The saddest thing is that we cannot seem to do anything but wait.
However, one thing that gives me hope is I have been talking and reconnecting a lot with the people I hold closest. They are not many. I can name and even point out how many people only are really close to me. Gladly, they are all doing well and I have been able to reach out to them during this time. I can really say that these people are very close with me. I have known most of them since preschool and elementary. I only have a few new close friends ever since I graduated junior high school, maybe even less than ten. Being able to talk and have lengthy conversations with them makes me happy. It gives me hope during these times. To these people, I thank all of you. They are only less than fifty so I know I can invite them all if I’d get married one day (LOL). All of you have kept me happy and hopeful during this depressing time. I hope I did my part to make you happy too!